在瞬息万变的时光里，人生的意义，究竟何在？

In the fleeting moments of time, what is the true meaning of life?

1. ❶突然间，世界仿佛变得灰暗无光，一切都失去了色彩。

1. Suddenly, the world seemed to become dark and devoid of light, everything losing its colors.

2. 自然以我当时的成绩是不可能考上高中的，加上当时家庭变故和失恋的打击，再也不想待在那个伤心地了。于是带着几个兄弟来到了现在所在的省份读了一个中专。到了新学校，不是一般的差，我当时在宿舍和几个人说，我们再也不能像以前一样混了，我们要改变，一定要变好，不然就毁了。我刚说完没多久就有人敲门，考验就来了有几个学生走进来，问我们哪里的，让加入同乡会，其实意思就是加入小团伙学校里所谓的帮派，还得交钱，以后就有人罩着，不然就挨打。妈蛋，劳资以前是打人是罩别人的好么？我总不能让我刚说出去的像放屁一样吧，所以我就比较强硬。。。。不说了，好啰嗦

2. With my grades at the time, it was impossible for me to pass the high school entrance exam. Add to that the family troubles and the blow of a broken relationship, I no longer wanted to stay in that place of sadness. So, with a few brothers, I came to the province I'm currently in and enrolled in a technical secondary school. At the new school, it was not just bad, but really bad. I remember saying to a few people in the dormitory that we can no longer just loaf around like before; we need to change, we must get better, or else we're ruined. Not long after I said this, someone knocked on the door, and the test came. Several students came in, asking where we were from and inviting us to join the alumni association, which was actually an invitation to join the school's so-called factions, and we had to pay money to be protected by them, or else we'd get beaten up. Dammit, was I someone who used to beat others and protect others? I couldn't let what I just said be as meaningless as farting, so I became rather tough... Enough said, it's too wordy.

3. ❾突然觉得过去的一切都是那么的遥远，现在的生活毫无意义。

3. Suddenly, everything in the past seems so distant, and the present life has no meaning.

4. ❷感到迷茫和无力，好像失去了所有的方向。

4. ❷ Feel confused and powerless, as if I have lost all sense of direction.

5. ❹心中涌现出深深的疲惫，想要逃离这个看似无趣的世界。

5. A deep fatigue wells up within, yearning to escape from this seemingly dull world.

6. ❻周围的一切都变得如此陌生，仿佛自己陷入了一个完全陌生的环境中。

6. ③ Everything around became so unfamiliar, as if I had been plunged into a completely foreign environment.

7. ❽心中空荡荡的，连自己都不知道自己在想什么。

7. There's an empty feeling in my heart, and I'm not even sure what I'm thinking.

8. 后来我就到大专去读了，那又是一个励志故事了

8. Later, I went to a junior college to study, which was another inspirational story.

9. 我最艰难的事就是从一个混蛋变成一个平凡的普通人

9. The hardest thing for me is to transform from a scoundrel into an ordinary person.

10. 初中的时候天天打架逃课，欺负同学，上课打牌抽烟，反正就是不干正事，然后父母离婚，再加上被当时最好的兄弟挖了初恋，感觉世界都塌了，人生再无意义。其实那时候活的也没有意思，整个人是混沌的，是非主流状态。

10. During junior high, I fought every day, skipped classes, bullied classmates, played cards and smoked in class, basically not doing anything serious. Then, my parents divorced, and on top of that, my best friend at the time betrayed my first love, making me feel like the world had collapsed and my life had no meaning. In reality, I was also living without any meaning at that time, feeling confused and not conforming to the mainstream.

11. 整个中专，我领了几十本荣誉证书，演讲好几场，从学生会干事到学生会副主席，班主兼校长助理，班主任助理，我的照片和一些事迹被印成大海报贴在食堂的画廊里作为学生标兵。

11. Throughout my technical secondary school years, I received dozens of honor certificates, gave several speeches, and progressed from a student union staff member to the vice president of the student union, class monitor and assistant principal, and assistant class teacher. My photos and some of my achievements were printed on large banners and displayed in the cafeteria gallery as role models for students.

12. ❼突然间，感到所有的努力和追求都变得毫无意义。

12. All of a sudden, I felt that all the efforts and pursuits were meaningless.

13. 最后一场架，被打的脑溢血。据当时在场的同学说，我当时口吐白沫，四肢抽搐倒在了学校口，当时赶上周五放学，我算是一架成名了。在医院昏迷了一个星期，躺了一个多月，开始靠药物治疗，没用，医生说必须要开颅放血才行。（醒过来时失忆了，医生说是淤血压迫了神经）当我躺在手术台的时候那一瞬间回忆了我当时那短短的一生，许多不曾记得的瞬间特别清晰的在脑海放映。当我再次醒来的时候我就知道我开始变的不一样了。才知道什么叫顿悟！

13. In the last fight, I was struck so hard that I suffered a cerebral hemorrhage. According to the classmates who were there at the time, I was spitting foam from my mouth, having convulsions, and collapsed at the school gate. It happened to be a Friday when school was dismissed, and I guess that's when I became famous for my fight. I was in a coma in the hospital for a week and then lay in bed for over a month. I started taking medication, but it didn't work, and the doctors said that I needed to have my skull opened and the blood drained out. (When I regained consciousness, I had lost my memory, and the doctors said it was due to the pressure from the hematoma on the nerves.) When I was lying on the operating table, I had a moment of recollection of the brief life I had lived at that moment, and many moments that I didn't remember were especially vivid in my mind. When I woke up again, I knew that I had started to change. That's when I understood what it meant to have an epiphany!

14. ❺突然意识到，曾经以为重要的东西，现在竟觉得毫无价值。

14. Sudden realization: things that were once thought to be important now seem completely valueless.

15. 虽然老师不讨厌我，但也不是很喜欢我。直到有一次开班会，老师点名叫我上去说，我一个字也说不出来，完全不知道说什么呀，老师说讲不出就站十分钟，转折点就在此，我是一个很敏感的人，如此丢脸，我要是像以前那样混就无所谓了，可是我都是好学生了，学习好人也好（我再也没有说过脏话了）怎么能让我如此丢脸。后来跑去应聘学生会干部，主要去练嘴，从开始不敢敲别的班的教室门到后来在全校几千人面前侃侃而谈，声情并茂的演讲。

15. Although the teacher didn't dislike me, he also didn't particularly like me. Until one time during a class meeting, the teacher called me up to speak, and I couldn't say a word, completely at a loss for what to say. The teacher said if I couldn't speak, I should stand there for ten minutes. The turning point was right there. I am a very sensitive person, and such a humiliating experience would have been no big deal if I had continued to act carelessly like before. But I had become a good student, both in terms of studying and behavior (I had stopped using profanity). How could I let myself be so humiliated? Later, I went to apply for a position in the student union to practice speaking. Starting from being afraid to knock on the doors of other classes, I eventually delivered a fluent and expressive speech in front of thousands of people in the school.

16. 在后来的日子里，我每天早早的去上课，晚上回宿舍老老实实做作业，不迟到不逃课不打架不早退不惹事按时交作业上课好好听讲，期末考试全班第三名，领了人生第一本奖状，从来没这么兴奋过，那是不曾有过的感觉，老师也不讨厌我，同学也不讨厌我，觉得世界太美好了，努力终于有回报了。最后班主任说前十名和倒数十名每人挂一课，一下子给我浇了盆冷水。

16. In the days that followed, I went to class early every day, diligently did my homework in the dormitory at night, never late, never skipped classes, never fought, never left early, never caused trouble, and always handed in my homework on time, paid attention to the lessons. I ranked third in the class in the final exam, received my first award certificate in life, and never felt so excited before. It was an unprecedented feeling. The teacher didn't dislike me, and neither did my classmates. I felt that the world was too beautiful, and my efforts finally paid off. In the end, the homeroom teacher said that everyone in the top ten and the bottom ten would have one class suspended, and this news instantly poured a bucket of cold water on me.

17. ❸在那一刻，觉得时间都静止了，连呼吸都变得沉重。

17. At that moment, it felt as if time had stood still, and even breathing became heavy.

18. ❿在这一刻，迷失了自我，找不到生活的方向。

18. At this moment, I have lost myself and cannot find the direction in life.