1. 我今年已经七十六岁了，八十岁以前的岁月我必须抓紧，不能让它白白浪费。

1. I am already seventy-six years old this year. I must seize the years before I turn eighty and cannot let them go to waste.

2. 钱并不会给我增加什么。使我能够活得更好的还是理想。并且钱就跟冬天的雪一样，积起来慢，化起来快。像这本小说里写的那样，高大房屋和漂亮花园的确常常更换主人。谁见过保持到百年、几百年的小私人财产!保得住的倒是在某些人看来极渺茫、极空虚的东西——理想同信仰。(《憩园》)

2. Money doesn't add anything to me. What allows me to live a better life is my ideals. And money is like winter snow; it accumulates slowly but melts quickly. As the novel describes, grand houses and beautiful gardens often change owners. Who has ever seen a small private property that has been maintained for a hundred or even a few hundred years! What is preserved is something that seems extremely insignificant and hollow to some people—the ideals and beliefs. (《The Resting Garden》)

3. 文学作品能产生潜移默化、塑造灵魂的效果，当然也会做出腐蚀心灵的坏事，但这二者都离不开读者的生活经历和他们所受的教育。经历、环境、教育等等都是读者身上、心上的积累，它们能抵抗作品的影响，也能充当开门揖盗的内应。

3. Literary works can produce a subtle and soul-shaping effect, of course, they can also do harm to the soul, but both of these cannot be separated from the reader's life experiences and their education. Experiences, environment, education, and so on are accumulations on both the reader's body and mind. They can resist the influence of works, but can also act as an inside accomplice for opening the door to thieves.

4. 渐渐的喜欢喝红牛，并不是因为它的味道很好，而是因为它的图标两头相爱的牛克服万难冲向对方，让心的距离变得更近。喝多了红牛至少不会让自己感到那么孤单。?>

4. Gradually, I developed a liking for Red Bull, not because its taste is particularly good, but because of its logo featuring two loving cows overcoming difficulties to rush towards each other, bringing the hearts closer together. Drinking Red Bull at least prevents me from feeling so lonely.

5. 过去我吃够了人云亦云的苦头，这要怪我自己不肯多动脑筋思考。虽然收在这里的只是些随想，它们却都是自己想过之后写出来的，我愿意为它们负责。

5. In the past, I've suffered enough from the woes of following others without thinking, which is my own fault for not using my brain more. Although what is collected here are just some random thoughts, they are all written after I have thought them through, and I am willing to take responsibility for them.

6. 我把我的感情，我的愤怒都放进我的小说。小说里的感情都是真实的。(如《家》事实上描写的就是他的家族，还有《憩园》也是写他所熟悉的人和地)

6. I pour my feelings and my anger into my novels. The emotions in the novels are all real. (For instance, "Home" actually describes his own family, and "Resting Garden" is also about the people and places he is familiar with.)

7. 五十一年前我在马赛住了十二天，听那位姓李的朋友讲过伊夫堡的事，它在我的脑子里只是一个可怕的阴影，一个囚禁犯人的古堡。回国以后才知道这里关过米拉波，才知道大仲马写《基度山伯爵》的时候，为他的英雄挑选了这样一个监牢，他当时经常同助手到这个地方来做实地调查。

7. Fifty-one years ago, I stayed in Marseilles for twelve days, and heard from a friend surnamed Li about the Château d'If. It was just a terrifying shadow in my mind, a castle that imprisoned prisoners. It was only after returning home that I learned that Mirabeau had been confined here, and that while writing "The Count of Monte Cristo," Alexandre Dumas chose this prison as the setting for his hero. At the time, he often came here with his assistants to conduct on-site investigations.

8. 有一个时期我的确相信别人所宣传的一切，我的确否定自己，准备从头做起，认真改造，脱胎换骨，重新做人。后来发觉自己受了骗，别人在愚弄我，我感到短时间的空虚。这是最大的幻灭。

8. There was a period when I truly believed everything that others propagandized, I truly denied myself, prepared to start over from scratch, to seriously transform, to be reborn and to start anew as a person. Later, I realized that I had been deceived, that others were fooling me, and I felt a brief emptiness. This was the greatest disillusionment.

9. 对长官的信仰由来已久。多少人把希望寄托在包青天的身上，创造出种种离奇的传说。还有人把希望寄托在海青天的身上，结果吴晗和周信芳都含恨而亡。一九六一年底或一九六二年初我在海南岛海口市也曾访过海瑞墓，幸而我没有写文章发议论，不然我早就跟吴、周两位一起走了，轮不到我在这里饶舌。 说实话，对包青天、海青天我都暗暗钦佩。不过我始终有个疑问：青天一个人就能解决问题？我常常想：倘使我自己不争气，是个扶不起的阿斗，事事都靠包青天、海青天，一个青天，两个青天，能解决多少问题呢？即使真有那么一个青天，他要是没有一批实干、苦干的得力干部，要是没有真心支持他的广大群众，单单靠一个好人、一番好意，会有什么样的结果呢？

9. The faith in the officials has a long history. How many people have placed their hopes on Bao Qingtian, creating all sorts of bizarre legends. Some have put their hopes on Hai Qingtian, but as a result, both Wu Han and Zhou Xinfang met a tragic end. At the end of 1961 or the beginning of 1962, I also visited the tomb of Hai Rui in Haikou, Hainan Island, and fortunately, I did not write any articles or make comments, otherwise I would have followed Wu and Zhou and left long ago, and it would not have been my turn to talk here. To be honest, I secretly admire both Bao Qingtian and Hai Qingtian. However, I always have a question: can a single Qingtian solve all problems? I often think: if I myself am not capable and am an indecisive person, relying on Bao Qingtian and Hai Qingtian for everything, how many problems can a single Qingtian and two Qingtians solve? Even if there really is such a Qingtian, if he does not have a group of capable and hardworking officials, and if he does not have the sincere support of the masses, what kind of result can a single good person and a good intention achieve?

10. 我提倡讲真话，并非自我吹嘘我在传播真理。正相反，我想说明过去我也讲过假话欺骗读者，欠下还不清的债。我讲的只是我自己相信的，我要是发现错误，可以改正。我不坚持错误，骗人骗己。(讲真话一直是巴金先生的行为准则，无论是在什么时候什么没地点，他都坚持讲出内心最真实的感受。即便他少言寡语，有点木讷，但他通过文字表露出来了，这激励着我，甚至一代代的文学爱好者)

10. I advocate speaking the truth, not to boast about my role in spreading truth. On the contrary, I want to clarify that I have also told lies and deceived readers in the past, accumulating an unpayable debt. What I speak of is only what I believe in, and if I find any errors, I can correct them. I do not persist in error, nor do I deceive myself or others. (Speaking the truth has always been Mr. Ba Jin's code of conduct, whether at any time or place, he has always persisted in expressing his most sincere feelings. Even though he is somewhat reserved and taciturn, he expresses it through his writing, which inspires me, and even generations of literary enthusiasts.)

11. 《随想录》堪称一本伟大的书。这是巴金用全部人生经验来倾心创作的。如果没有对美好理想的追求，没有对完美人格的追求，没有高度严肃的历史态度，老年巴金就不会动笔。他在《随想录》中痛苦回忆、深刻反思，完成了最真实人格的塑造。

11. "Reflections" is truly a great book. This is a book that Ba Jin poured his entire life's experience into with all his heart. Without the pursuit of beautiful ideals, without the pursuit of a perfect character, and without a highly serious historical attitude, the elderly Ba Jin would not have started writing. In "Reflections," he painfully recalled and profoundly reflected, shaping the most authentic personality.

12. “既然活着，要活得有意义。生命不是单单领取，生命在于不断给予。”

12. "Since we are alive, we should live meaningfully. Life is not merely about receiving, but about constantly giving."

13. 《随想录》是巴金一生的心血。他在晚年终于写下了在当代中国产生巨大影响的《随想录》，以此来履行一个知识分子应尽的历史责任，从而达到了文学和思想的**。

13. "Reflections" is the life's work of Ba Jin. In his later years, he finally wrote "Reflections," which had a profound impact on contemporary China, thereby fulfilling the historical responsibility of an intellectual, and achieving a fusion of literature and thought.

14. 在我这一生，写作与生活是混在一起的，体验生活不仅是为了积累资料，也还是为了改变生活。

14. Throughout my life, writing and life have been intertwined; experiencing life is not only for accumulating material but also for changing life.

15. 晚年的巴金在《随想录》一书中，以罕见的勇气说真话，为中国知识分子树立了一座丰碑。他对过去的反思，他追求真理的精神也赢得了文化界的尊敬。从《随想录》里，人们又见到了那个熟悉的巴金，他开始独立思考而不再盲目听命，挣脱思想枷锁而不再畏首畏尾，直言中国过去太不重视个人权利，缺乏民主与法制，痛感今天在我们社会里封建的流毒还很深，很广，家长作风还占优势。集中批判长官意志。

15. In his later years, Ba Jin spoke the truth with rare courage in his book "Memoirs of a Thoughtful Life," setting a monument for Chinese intellectuals. His reflection on the past and his pursuit of truth also earned respect from the cultural circle. From "Memoirs of a Thoughtful Life," people once again saw the familiar Ba Jin, who began to think independently and no longer blindly obey, freeing himself from the shackles of thought and no longer looking over his shoulder, openly stating that China had not paid enough attention to individual rights in the past, lacked democracy and the rule of law, and deeply felt that the influence of feudalism in our society today is still very deep and widespread, with the patriarchal style still dominant. He focused on criticizing the arbitrary will of leaders.

16. 我有满腹的话，不能信手写去，思前想后我考虑很多。

16. I have a lot to say, but I can't just write it off the cuff. I've given it a lot of thought, thinking and reconsidering.

17. 写文章就是对人讲话，能把话讲清楚，使人懂得就好。(也许这就是巴老对于一篇文章最基本的看法与评价标准吧)

17. Writing an article is like speaking to people; as long as you can express your thoughts clearly and make them understandable, that's enough. (Perhaps this is what Ba Lao considers the most basic view and evaluation standard for an article.)

18. 我们不要只懂得靠别人，人活着就是要给世界出一份力，做一个对世界有用的人，我们成长的道路上都要拥有更多的爱、同情、精力、时间 这些东西比我们自己重要得多 只有用这些东西为别人 为别人付出 才会得到别人的赞美 生命有意义，得到别人的认同、尊敬 如果一心只为自己 那么在我们所用的时间、爱、同情、精力、时间会变的微乎其微

18. We should not only know how to rely on others. The purpose of living is to contribute to the world and be a person who is useful to the world. Throughout our path of growth, we should possess more love, sympathy, energy, and time. These things are much more important than ourselves. Only by using these things to help others and make sacrifices for others can we receive others' praise. Life is meaningful, and we can gain others' recognition and respect. If we are solely focused on ourselves, then the time, love, sympathy, energy, and time we use will become minuscule.

19. 十多年来流行过的那一整套，今天看起来，都十分可笑，例如早请示、晚汇报、跳忠字舞、剪忠字花、敲锣打鼓半夜**等等、等等。 这些东西是从哪里一下子跳出来的？我当时实在想不通。但是后来明白了：它们都是从旧货店里给找出来的。我们有的是封建社会的破烂货，非常丰富！五四时期这个旧货店给冲了一下，可是不久就给保护起来了。***后来又把它当做宝库。林彪和四人帮更把它看做取之不尽用之不竭的宝藏。四人帮打起左的大旗，大吹批孔，其实他们道道地地在贩卖旧货。无怪乎林彪整天念他的政变经，江青整夜做吕后和武则天的梦。四人帮居然混了十年，而且越混越厉害，在国际上混到了个激进派的称号。这真是滑天下之大稽！想起来既可悲又痛心。

19. The entire set of practices that were popular for more than a decade now look incredibly可笑 in today's eyes, such as early morning requests, evening reports, performing the "loyalty dance," cutting loyalty flowers, beating drums and gongs at midnight, and so on and so forth. Where did all these things suddenly come from? At that time, I really couldn't understand. But later, I realized: they were all dug out from an old store. We have plenty of relics from the feudal society, abundant and varied! The old store was somewhat disrupted during the May 4th Movement, but it was soon protected.*** Later, it was regarded as a treasure trove. Lin Biao and the Gang of Four considered it an inexhaustible treasure. The Gang of Four waved the big flag of "leftism" and exaggeratedly criticized Confucius, but in fact, they were selling old goods. It's no wonder that Lin Biao constantly recited his coup theories, and Jiang Qing dreamed of becoming Empress Lu or Empress Wu all night. The Gang of Four managed to survive for ten years, and their influence grew stronger, earning them a reputation as radicals in the international community. This is truly absurd! It's both sad and painful to think about it.

20. 然而在今年六月号的《河北文艺》上就出现了这样的话。文章的题目是：《歌德与缺德》。用意无非是拿起棍子打人。难道作者真以为社会主义就是靠吹牛吹出来的吗？不会吧。四人帮吹牛整整吹了十年，把中国国民经济吹到了崩溃的边缘，难道那位作者就看不见，就不明白？

20. However, in the June issue of "Hebei Literature and Art" this year, there appeared such a statement. The title of the article is: "Goethe and Lack of Morality." The intention is merely to beat others with a stick. Does the author really think that socialism can be achieved by blowing bubbles? I don't think so. The Gang of Four had been blowing bubbles for a full ten years, pushing China's national economy to the brink of collapse. Does that author not see it, not understand it?

21. 我虽然年过古稀，满头白发，但是我还有青年高觉慧那样的燃烧的心和永不衰竭的热情，我要遵守自己的诺言，绝不放下手中的笔。(高觉慧是巴金笔下的一个人物，出现在《家》这部小说里，高觉慧是一个勇于向封建社会挑战的人。其实也就是巴金先生自己的化身)

21. Although I have passed the age of seventy, with all my hair turned white, I still have a burning heart and an endless passion like Gao Juehui, a character created by Ba Jin in his novel "Family." I will keep my promise and never put down the pen in my hand. (Gao Juehui is a character in Ba Jin's novel "Family," a person who dares to challenge the feudal society. In fact, he is also the embodiment of Mr. Ba Jin himself.)

22. 一个作家不是通过自己的艺术实践而是通过其他的社会活动同读者见面，一个作家的名字不署在自己的作品上，而经常出现在新闻中间，难怪读者们疑心他会干种种稀奇古怪的事情。

22. A writer meets the readers not through their artistic practice but through other social activities; their name is not attached to their works but often appears in the news. It's no wonder that readers suspect they might engage in all sorts of strange and peculiar deeds.

23. 他们在自己的四周画了一个圈圈，把圈圈外面的一切完全涂掉、一笔抹杀，仿佛全世界就只有他们。没有错，老子天下第一！把外来的宾客都看做来朝贡的，拿自己编造的东西当成宝贝塞给别人。他们搞愚民政策，首先就使自己出丑。江青连《醉打山门》是谁写的都搞不清楚，还好意思向外国人吹嘘自己对司汤达尔颇有研究！自己无知还以为别人也同样无知，这的确是可悲的事情。

23. They drew a circle around themselves, completely erasing and抹杀 everything outside of it, as if the entire world only consisted of them. No mistake, Laozi is number one in the world! They treated all outsiders as tributary envoys, and regarded the things they concocted as treasures to be塞给别人. They practiced policies to keep the people ignorant, but first of all, they made themselves look foolish. Jiang Qing didn't even know who wrote "Drunk Fight at the Mountain Gate," yet she dared to boast to foreigners about her considerable knowledge of Stendhal! To be unaware of one's own ignorance and yet believe that others are similarly ignorant is indeed a tragic situation.

24. 在医院内漫长的日日夜夜里，我受尽了回忆和噩梦的折磨，也不断给陪伴我的亲属们增添了麻烦和担心……我常讲梦话，把梦境和现实混淆在一起，有一次我女婿听见我在自言自语：“结束了，一个悲剧……”几乎吓坏了他。有时头脑清醒，特别是在不眠的长夜里，我反复要自己回答一个问题：我的结局是不是就在这里我忍受不了肯定的回答。我欠下了那么多债，绝不能那样撒手而去!(正如他说，不能那么快的走。因为它还有好多感情没有表露出来，他还有好多话没有说出来，他是爱祖国、爱人民的)《病中(

24. During the long days and nights in the hospital, I endured the torment of memories and nightmares, and continuously added trouble and worry to my relatives who accompanied me... I often talked in my sleep, confusing dreams with reality. Once, my son-in-law heard me muttering to myself: "It's over, a tragedy..." and he was almost scared to death. Sometimes, when I was清醒，especially during sleepless nights, I kept asking myself a question: Is my end here, and I couldn't bear to accept the affirmative answer. I owe so much, I cannot just give up like that! (As he said, I can't leave so quickly. Because there are still many emotions unexpressed, many things unsaid. He loves his country, he loves the people.) "Sick..."

25. 文艺评论主要是为了扶植繁荣创作，而不是堵塞，批评也是一种疏导。(从这一句简短的话语中就可以了解到巴老的谦虚，无论是对谁的批评他都回虚心接受，不论是文学大豪或小资小辈他永远也不会摆出一副文学泰斗或老者的架子)

25. Literary criticism is mainly aimed at fostering and thriving creation, rather than blocking, and criticism itself is also a kind of guidance. (From this brief statement, one can understand Ba Lao's modesty, as he would always accept criticism with humility, whether it is from a literary giant or a minor talent, he would never put on the airs of a literary master or an elder.)

26. 就令萤火一般；也可以在黑暗里发一点光，不必等候炬火。

26. Even as the firefly; it can emit a bit of light in the darkness, without having to wait for the torch.

27. 请让我安静，我不是社会名流，我不是等待“抢救”的材料，我只是一个作家，一个到死也不愿放下笔的作家。

27. Let me be left in peace. I am not a social celebrity, I am not material for "rescue." I am just a writer, a writer who will not put down the pen until the day I die.

28. 今天有人喜欢表示自己一贯正确，三十年，甚至六十年都是一贯正确。我不大相信。我因为自己受了骗，出了丑，倒反而敢于挺起胸来独立思考，讲一点心里的老实话。我在文化大**中有很大的收获，四人帮之流贩卖的那批左的货色全部展览出来，它们的确是封建专制的破烂货，除了商标，哪里有一点点**的气味！林彪、四人帮以及什么这个人、那个人用封建专制主义的全面复辟来反对并不曾出现的资本主义社会，他们把种种出土文物乔装打扮硬要人相信这是社会主义。他们为了推行他们所谓的对资产阶级的全面**，不知杀了多少人，流了多少血。今天我带着无法治好的内伤迎接五四运动的六十周年，我庆幸自己逃过了那位来不及登殿的女皇的刀斧。

28. Today, some people like to express that they have always been right, for thirty years, even sixty years. I don't believe that much. I dare to think independently and speak the truth from the heart because I have been deceived and made a fool of myself. I have gained a lot from the Great Proletarian Cultural Revolution. The left-wing garbage peddled by the Gang of Four has all been exposed. It is indeed the relics of feudal despotism; aside from the brand, where is there any trace of the scent of progressiveness! Lin Biao, the Gang of Four, and those who, using the comprehensive restoration of feudal despotism, opposed the capitalist society that never actually appeared, dressed up various unearthed cultural relics and tried to make people believe they were socialist. They killed countless people and shed a lot of blood to promote what they called the comprehensive suppression of the bourgeoisie. Today, I welcome the 60th anniversary of the May Fourth Movement with internal injuries that cannot be healed. I am fortunate to have escaped the blade and axe of that empress who didn't have time to ascend the throne.

29. 风向我证明，距这里很远很远的地方所产生的运动到达了我这里。

29. The wind proves to me that movements that originated from a place far, far away have reached here.

30. 《随想录》简介

30. Introduction to "Memoirs of a Thoughtful Journey"

31. 家如果自行消亡，我一定会十分高兴，因为摆脱了封建，我们的祖国、我们的社会一定会有更大的进步，这正是我朝夕相盼的事。

31. If the family were to self-destruct, I would be extremely happy, because by shedding feudalism, our motherland and our society would surely make even greater progress, which is exactly what I have been eagerly anticipating.

32. 只有把想说的话全说出来，只有把堆积在心上的污泥完全挖掉，只有把那十几年走的道路看得清清楚楚，讲的明明白白，我才会得到心的平静。

32. Only by fully expressing what I want to say, by completely removing the muddy sludge accumulated in my heart, and by clearly and distinctly understanding the path I have walked for the past ten or so years, will I achieve inner peace.

33. 外国朋友对大字报有不同的看法，以为大字报就是民主的化身。谈论大字报，难道我没有资格发言？整整五年中间，成百上千的大字报揭发、肯定我的罪行，甚至说我是汉奸**贼，在大街上、在大广告牌上长时期张贴大批判专栏揭发我的所谓罪状，随意编造我的所谓罪行，称我为狗，连我的老婆、兄弟、儿女都变成了狗群。我记得最清楚：我的爱人第二次被揪到作协分会去的时候，人们在我家大门上张贴了揭发她的罪行的大字报，倘使不是我的儿子晚上把它撕掉，一张大字报真会要她的命。

33. Foreign friends have different opinions about the big character posters, thinking that the big character posters are the embodiment of democracy. When discussing the big character posters, do I not have the right to speak? For a whole five years, hundreds and thousands of big character posters exposed and confirmed my crimes, even calling me a traitor and a spy. They posted long-term big character poster columns in the streets and on large billboards to expose my so-called crimes, arbitrarily fabricating my so-called crimes, calling me a dog, and even turning my wife, brothers, and children into a pack of dogs. I remember very clearly: when my beloved was taken to the Writers' Association branch for the second time, people posted big character posters exposing her crimes on our front door. If it weren't for my son tearing them down at night, one of those big character posters could have cost her her life.

34. 人各有志，我的愿望绝非“欢度晚年”。只想把自己的全部感情、全部爱憎消耗干净，然后心安理得地离开人间。(有多少老人会像他一样到老也依然充满火热情怀呢)

34. Everyone has their own aspirations, and my wish is not to simply "enjoy my old age." I only want to exhaust all my feelings, all my likes and dislikes, and then leave the world with a peaceful and justified heart. (How many elderly people are still full of passion and enthusiasm like him in their old age?)

35. 贴别人的大字报也不见得就是发扬民主。民主并不是装饰。即使有了民主墙，即使你贴了好的大字报，别人也可以把它覆盖，甚至可以撕掉，也可以置之不理。只有在四害横行的时期大字报才有无穷的威力。一纸勒令就可以抄人家、定人罪，甚至叫人扫地出门，因为它后面有着四人帮篡夺了的一部分权力。

35. It doesn't necessarily mean promoting democracy to paste big character posters on others. Democracy is not just decoration. Even if there is a democracy wall, and even if you paste good big character posters, others can cover them up, even tear them down, or simply ignore them. It was only during the period when the four plagues were rampant that big character posters had limitless power. One order could lead to copying someone's belongings, convicting them, or even forcing them out of their home, because it was backed by a part of the power seized by the Gang of Four.

36. 我想问一句：在我们伟大的社会主义祖国正面的东西是不是占主导地位？那么为什么今天还有不少人担心年轻人离开温室就会落进罪恶的深渊，恨不得把年轻人改造成为没有性程序的五百型机器人呢？ 今天的青年，拿《天安门诗抄》的作者和读者为例吧，他们比我们那一代高明得多！他们觉悟高，勇气大，办法多，决心大。没有这样的新的一代的**青年，谁来实现四个现代化？要说他们只能看删剪后的《望乡》，否则听到**、五块钱这类字眼，就会，这真是以己之心度人之腹。这是极其可悲的民族虚无主义！

36. I would like to ask: Are the positive aspects dominant in our great socialist motherland? Then why do so many people still worry today that young people will fall into the abyss of sin when they leave the greenhouse, and would like to transform them into five-hundred-type robots without sexual programs? Today's youth, take the authors and readers of "The Anthology of Tiananmen Poems" as an example, they are much more sophisticated than our generation! They are highly conscious, brave, resourceful, and resolute. Without such a new generation of young people, who will achieve the four modernizations? To say that they can only read the censored "Looking Back on My Homeland," otherwise they will react strongly to words like **, five yuan, this is truly projecting one's own thoughts onto others. This is an extremely tragic form of national nihilism!

37. 人是十分复杂的。人是会改变的。绝没有生下来就是高大全那样的好人，也没有生下来就是座山雕那样的坏人。只有四人帮才想得到什么三突出、高起点一整套的鬼话。他们说的话越漂亮，做的事越见不得人。他们垮台了，可是他们的流毒现在到处都有。譬如学习外语吧，我收听外语广播讲座时，还听到为**学习外语的宣传。我想，学外语不去记单词、做练习、学文法、念课文，却念念不忘**，那么一定学不好外语。同样从事**工作的人并不一定要为**吃饭，为**睡眠。吃饭就吃饭，睡眠就睡眠，难道不挂上**的牌子，就会损害**者的崇高品质吗？

37. Humans are extremely complex. People change. There is no one who is born as perfect as a "good person" or as evil as "Zao Shaniao" (a character from a Chinese novel). Only the "Gang of Four" would come up with such absurdities as "three prominent aspects" and "starting high." The more eloquent their words, the more deplorable their actions. They have fallen, but their poisonous influence is everywhere today. For instance, when I listen to foreign language broadcast lectures, I still hear propaganda for **studying foreign languages. I think, if one does not remember vocabulary, do exercises, study grammar, and recite texts but keeps **memorizing, then they will definitely not learn the foreign language well. Similarly, those who engage in **work do not necessarily need to **eat for it, or **sleep for it. Eating is eating, sleeping is sleeping; does hanging up **a sign damage **the noble qualities of the **individual?**

38. 要写出一部像样的作品，我得吃很多苦，下很多功夫，这对我的创作没妨碍。

38. To write a decent piece, I have to endure a lot of hardship and put in a lot of effort, which doesn't hinder my creativity.

39. 我唯一的心愿是：化作泥土，留在人们温暖的脚印里。

39. My only wish is to become soil and stay in the warm footprints of people.

40. 相信好人也罢，相信长官也罢，二者其实是一样。总之，把自己的命运交给别人，甚至交给某一个两个人，自己一点也不动脑筋，只是相信别人，那太危险了。碰巧这一两个人是林彪、江青之类，那就更糟了。好人做好事，不错；好人做错事，怎么办？至于坏人呢？坏人做起坏事来，不只是一件、两件啊！

40. Whether you believe in good people or in the authorities, the truth is that they are the same. In short, to entrust one's own destiny to others, even to just one or two individuals, without using one's own mind at all, and just believing in others, is extremely dangerous. If by chance these one or two individuals are people like Lin Biao or Jiang Qing, then it's even worse. It's fine if good people do good deeds; what should be done if good people do wrong? And as for evil people? When evil people do evil deeds, it's not just one or two!

41. 我的经验总是写自己熟悉的题材好。不熟悉的，写起来既吃力，也写不好。(这让我懂得挖掘身边最熟悉的事情，写我们自己的生活)

41. My experience has always been that it's better to write about topics I'm familiar with. Unfamiliar subjects are both difficult to write and not done well. (This has taught me to delve into the most familiar things around me and write about our own lives.)

42. 我明明记得我曾经由人变兽，有人告诉我这不过是十年一梦。

42. I distinctly remember that I once transformed from a human into an animal, and someone told me that it was just a ten-year dream.

43. 火不灭，心不死，永不搁笔。(这是巴老写在《随想录》的一句话，听起来多澎湃阿!)

43. The fire does not熄灭, the heart does not die, and the pen never stops writing. (This is a sentence written by Ba La in his "Reflections," which sounds so inspiring!)

44. 《随想录》是巴金晚年创作的一部杂文集，巴金直面**带来的灾难，直面自己人格曾经出现的扭曲。他愿意用真实的写作，填补一度出现的精神空白。

44. "Reflections" is a collection of essays written by Ba Jin in his later years. Ba Jin confronts the disasters brought about by **[the issue not specified in the original text] and directly faces the distortion of his own personality that had once occurred. He is willing to use truthful writing to fill the spiritual void that once appeared.

45. 《随想录》收录巴金先生**结束后创作的一百五十篇文章，分为《随想录》《探索集》《真话集》《病中集》《无题集》共五集，统称随想录。

45. "Reflections" includes 150 articles written by Mr. Ba Jin after his retirement, divided into five volumes: "Reflections," "Exploration Collection," "Sincere Words Collection," "Sickbed Collection," and "Untitled Collection," collectively known as "Reflections."