在昏黄的灯光下，他的签名仿佛一记重锤，砸在了他的心口，让原本沉重的负荷更重几分。

Under the dim light, his signature seemed like a heavy hammer, pounding against his heart, making the originally heavy burden even heavier.

1. 我还记得，当我一身白衣的时候，你举杯微笑。此时，我不再是我。

1. I still remember when I was dressed in all white, you raised your cup and smiled. At this moment, I am no longer myself.

2. 如果我成了回忆，请让我离开你的生活。

2. If I become a memory, let me leave your life.

3. 一个人的心，可以反复包容，可以反复承受无数伤痕。但是，我忘了，人是累的。

3. A person's heart can repeatedly embrace, repeatedly bear countless wounds. But I forgot, humans can grow tired.

4. 我好累，好想回答我会和你在一起，可是我做不到。

4. I am so tired, and I really want to answer that I will be with you, but I just can't.

5. 我是一个不善于开启或维持对话的人。

5. I am not good at initiating or maintaining a conversation.

6. 我还是想你，只是你不知道。

6. I still miss you, but you don't know.

7. 我心里清楚的知道你已经离开了，但还是忍不住想抓住一丝自嘲的希望。

7. I am well aware in my heart that you have already left, yet I can't help but grasp at a sliver of hope for self-mockery.

8. 现实和失望沉沉睡去，只剩下孤独紧紧跟随。

8. Reality and disappointment sink into a deep sleep, leaving only loneliness to tightly follow.

9. 时间慢慢流过贫瘠的青春，开始日夜难过。

9. Time slowly slips away from the barren youth, and the sadness begins to be felt day and night.

10. 谁能理解我的孤独和悲伤？

10. Who can understand my loneliness and sorrow?

11. 恋爱中没有真爱，就不再有趣。我感觉你对我的爱缺乏那种真诚。

11. Without true love in a relationship, it no longer becomes interesting. I feel that the love you have for me lacks that sincerity.

12. 笑哭是最痛苦的。真的很痛。这种痛苦以前从未有过。

12. Laughter through tears is the most painful. It really hurts. This kind of pain has never been experienced before.

13. 我要多可怜才能得到你的一点同情？

How desolate must I be for you to spare even a bit of sympathy for me?

14. 如果你软弱了很久，你就知道该长大了。

14. If you have been weak for a long time, you know it's time to grow up.

15. 亲情是我无法承受的沉重负担，情话只是偶尔的谎言。

15. Family ties are a heavy burden I can't bear, and love talk is just occasional lies.

16. 遗憾是得不到的，或者是找到了却不那么好。

16. Regret is either not attainable, or if it is found, it's not very good.

17. 心灵的治愈是你一生中最期待的。

17. The healing of the soul is the most anticipated thing in your life.

18. 如果不是本色出演，就不会有这么多悲伤。

18. If it weren't for the genuine performance, there wouldn't be so much sadness.

19. 你怎么能不问你爱不爱我？

19. How can you not ask if you love me?

20. 我想知道这些野鹅带走了谁的思想。

20. I want to know whose thoughts these wild geese carried away.

21. 原来想念一个人有多难，连呼吸都快窒息了。

21. How difficult it is to miss someone, it's almost as if breathing is difficult and one's breath is stifled.

22. 隔墙有耳，笑你多伤心。

22. There are ears behind the partition, laughing at how sad you are.

23. 在这个世界的自然法则中，我活得如此狼狈。

23. In the natural laws of this world, I live in such a wretched state.

24. 用冰酒麻醉你那颗深爱你的心，让它冻结。

24.麻醉你那颗深爱着你的心，用冰酒使其冻结。

25. 原来你的生命如此短暂。

25. Originally, your life is so short.

26. 期待妄想的时候就觉得累。

26. Feeling exhausted when anticipating delusional thoughts.

27. 整个世界的孤独，没有你付出的多。

27. The loneliness of the entire world doesn't exceed what you have given.

28. 没心没肺，多亏了你，我学会了麻木。

28. Because of you, who has no heart or mind, I have learned to become indifferent.

29. 我再也不会想起你了，会痛的。

29. I will never think of you again, it will hurt.

30. 我耐心等待，你却像捉迷藏一样避开我。

30. I patiently wait, but you dodge me like a game of hide and seek.

31. 时光飞逝你不会回头，你也会。

31. Time flies and you won't look back, but you also will.

32. 承载了太多回忆的声音，平淡而痛苦。

32. The voice that carried too many memories, plain yet painful.

33. 原来最终的归宿只是为了证明你已经离开。

33. The ultimate destination was just to prove that you have left.

34. 我只是在寻找最初的永恒何时会成为现实。

34. I am just looking for when the original eternity will become a reality.

35. 结束了，拖着疲惫的身体走在冷清的大街上。

35. It's over, walking down the desolate street with a weary body.

36. 我以为遗忘会赢，但是我的眼泪告诉我，我失败了。

36. I thought that forgetfulness would win, but my tears told me that I had failed.

37. 十一是遗憾，十二是难忘，而你十三，遗憾是难忘。

37. Eleven is regret, twelve is unforgettable, and for you, thirteen is regret that is unforgettable.

38. 我不想强求我达不到的幸福。如果你会失去它，为什么要拥有它？

38. I don't want to insist on happiness that I can't achieve. If you would lose it, why should you have it?

39. 大片的凉风侵袭着这座荒凉的城市，树叶变黄，大雁离去。

39. A gust of cool wind swept over the desolate city, with leaves turning yellow and geese flying away.

40. 算了，他不爱我，他有爱我的人。

40. Never mind, he doesn't love me; he has people who do.

41. 这几年抽烟喝酒打架什么都学。我在做什么？

41. In these years, I've learned to smoke, drink, and fight. What am I doing?

42. 太多的笑留到明天，因为我怕失去这一秒的笑。

42. Too many laughs saved for tomorrow, for I fear losing this moment of laughter.

43. 我的天真早已粉碎成许多焦虑，我曾试图拼凑却再也无法完整。

43. My innocence has long been shattered into countless anxieties, which I have tried to piece together but can no longer restore to wholeness.

44. 我想用不一样的心情展现一个不一样的我，却突然在你面前崩溃。

44. I wanted to show a different me with a different mood, but suddenly I collapsed in front of you.

45. 我是那么深情，伤痕累累，终于学会了无情。

45. I was so deeply affectionate, wounded and scarred, until I finally learned to be indifferent.

46. 不要问我是否爱过你，因为我的爱与你无关。

46. Don't ask me if I have ever loved you, because my love has nothing to do with you.

47. 失望扼杀了我所有的热情。

47. Disappointment killed all my enthusiasm.

48. 我不明白为什么在内心支离破碎的情况下，我还要装的很华丽。

48. I don't understand why I still have to put on such a grand facade despite feeling broken inside.

49. 你们这些鹅怎么知道我小麻雀的野心？

49. How do you geese know about my sparrow's ambition?

50. 从陌生人变成陌生人是我们的故事。

50. Becoming strangers from strangers is our story.