夜幕低垂，星光点点。她，一个平凡女子，在某一瞬间，被命运的手轻轻一推，跌入了无尽的深渊。那一刻，她灵魂深处，涌起了一股难以言喻的狂热……

As night falls and stars twinkle, she, an ordinary woman, in a moment, is gently pushed by the hand of fate, falling into an endless abyss. At that moment, a formless passion surged from the depths of her soul...

1. 五、一个人，一座城，一条路，一颗心，终究还是孤独一生。

1. Five, a person, a city, a road, a heart, in the end, it is still a solitary life.

2. 第四，我有尊严，即使我很冷，我也不会失去我的骄傲。

2. Fourthly, I have dignity; even if I am cold, I will not lose my pride.

3. 三十一、什么是多余？是夏天的床单，冬天的蒲扇，冷了心之后你的殷勤。

3. Thirty-first, what is excess? It is the summer bedding, the winter bamboo fan, and your attentiveness after your heart has grown cold.

4. 祈祷我不会再受伤。当我拿出自己最真实的心，却被折磨的不敢轻易相信。希望以后对我好一点，不要再让我觉得冷了。

4. I pray that I will not get hurt again. When I present my true heart, I am tormented and dare not believe easily. I hope that you will treat me a bit better from now on and never make me feel cold again.

5. 一次次相信和期待，一次次失望和心寒。我想我是不敢听所谓的安排和未来的。即使是最重要的等待，我也开始动摇。

5. Time and again, believing and expecting, only to be disappointed and feel cold-hearted. I think I'm not daring to listen to the so-called arrangements and the future. Even the most important wait, I have started to waver.

6. 你就像我嘴里的牛奶。我又渴又饿又困又累，但是你帮不了我。你只滋润了我一会儿。

6. You are like the milk in my mouth. I am both thirsty and hungry, tired and exhausted, but you can't help me. You only refreshed me for a moment.

7. 十三、最伟大的人不是拥有一切最好的人，而是让一切都变得更好的人。

7. Thirteen, the greatest person is not the one who possesses everything that is the best, but the one who makes everything better.

8. 遇到解决不了的事情，就去问孩子。孩子脱口而出的意见往往是最准确、最实际的答案。

8. When faced with things that cannot be resolved, ask the children. The opinions they come up with on the spot are often the most accurate and practical answers.

9. 十五，你变了，我也变了。回不去的温柔和眼泪，最熟悉的都成了最心碎的。

9. Fifteen, you have changed, and so have I. The gentle and tearful moments that can't be returned have all turned into the most heart-wrenching ones.

10. 真正的失望不是大喊大叫，大哭大闹，或者对你发脾气，而是沉默。你所做的和我已经没有任何关系了。

10. True disappointment is not loud shouting, crying, or losing your temper with me. It is silence. What you have done has nothing to do with me anymore.

11. 请不要敷衍我，因为我容易满足，容易心寒。

11. Please do not take me lightly, as I am easily satisfied but also easily hurt.

12. 这个世界上有几十亿人，每个人都是独一无二的存在，你没资格对别人指手画脚。况且不是谁都稀罕和你一模一样。

12. There are several billion people in this world, and each one is a unique existence. You have no right to point fingers at others. Moreover, not everyone appreciates being exactly the same as you.

13. 二十八、有的人走路喜欢看手机。他们不是贪玩，而是想掩盖一个人的尴尬。

13. Twenty-eighth, some people like to look at their phones while walking. It's not that they are addicted to playing games, but rather they want to hide a person's embarrassment.

14. 十六、接近期望，期望带来失望的恶性循环。

14. Sixteen: The vicious cycle of approaching expectations, leading to disappointment.

15. 二十一、有时候真的很寒心，寒心自己太自以为是，以为会有人把你看的最重要。

15. 21. Sometimes it really breaks my heart, feeling so self-righteous, thinking that someone would value you the most.

16. 九、因为得不到，所以不忘。

16. Because it is not obtained, it is not forgotten.

17. 可能生活就是这样，越是惧怕什么，越会发生什么。你以为的天长地久，转眼就是曾经拥有。你向往的平平淡淡，总会遭遇措手不及。

17. Perhaps life is like that, the more you fear something, the more likely it will happen. What you think will last forever can turn into a memory in an instant. The simple, uneventful life you yearn for will always catch you off guard.

18. 做不到的事别随意答应，喜悦的时候别轻易许诺，忧伤的时候别乱回答，愤怒的时候少做决定，这样你的生活会轻松许多。

18. Don't随意 agree to things you can't do, don't轻易promise when you're joyful, don't randomly answer when you're sad, and make fewer decisions when you're angry. In this way, your life will be much easier.

19. 三十，我想你，无尽的思念很快会吞噬我的理智。

19. Thirty, I miss you, the endless longing will soon consume my reason.

20. 七、你淡然转身，平时的平静掠过你的脸庞。人在人间的感觉，有一种宁静平和的美。

20. Seven, you turn away calmly, the usual tranquility crossing your face. The feeling of being in the world among people has a serene and peaceful beauty.

21. 决定放弃了的事，就请放弃得干干净净，那些决定再也不见面的人，就真的不要见面了，不要再做背叛自己的事了，如果想爱别人，就先好好爱自己!

21. If you have decided to give something up, please do so cleanly. If you have decided never to see someone again, really don't see them. Don't do things that betray yourself anymore. If you want to love others, first love yourself well!

22. 二十九、如果沦落到让别人主导你的情绪，太容易失望和受伤。

22. Twenty-nine, if you fall into a situation where others control your emotions, it is too easy to feel disappointed and hurt.

23. 没有期望，就不会有失望。不给自己做梦的机会。不会有悲伤的结局。

23. Without expectations, there will be no disappointment. Don't give yourself the chance to dream. There won't be a sad ending.

24. 十二、要了解一个人，一定是你曾经在乎过；要看清一个人，你一定是落魄过；看破一个人，一定和你打过仗；看透一个人，你一定付出过；看透一个人，一定是被骗了；看不起一个人，你一定是珍惜过；看清一个人，一定是放弃了。

24. Twelve, to understand a person, you must have cared for them; to see a person clearly, you must have been down on your luck; to see through a person, you must have fought with them; to penetrate a person, you must have given; to see through a person, you must have been deceived; to look down upon a person, you must have cherished them; to see a person clearly, you must have given up on them.

25. 第六，总有那么一瞬间，让你心凉如水；总有些话让你无言以对；总有一些事情让你心寒；总有一些人让你后悔！错怪一个人，就要学会转身；白白付出一个人情，就要懂得收心！

25. Sixth, there is always a moment that makes your heart feel as cold as water; there are always some words that leave you speechless; there are always some things that chill your heart; and there are always some people that make you regret! If you have wronged someone, you need to learn to turn around; if you have given someone a favor without expecting anything in return, you should know how to focus on yourself!

26. 十九、理想和现实总有差距，幸好有差距，不然，谁还想要理想。

26. Nineteen, there is always a gap between ideals and reality. Fortunately, there is a gap; otherwise, who would still want ideals?

27. 如果一个人有心让你孤独，看着你为他痛苦，他就是不爱你，不忙，不疏忽，不无知，不试探，不暂时遗忘，不孤僻，只是不爱你。

27. If someone is determined to make you lonely, watching you suffer for them, they do not love you. It's not because they are busy, negligent, ignorant, experimenting, temporarily forgetting, or reclusive; it's just that they do not love you.

28. 你想让我告诉你如何避免受伤吗？不要给予或接受任何东西，也不要期待任何东西，这样你就不会失望或受伤。

28. Would you like me to tell you how to avoid getting hurt? Do not give or accept anything, and do not expect anything, so you won't be disappointed or hurt.

29. 第一，第一次感觉失望，就像被人戳到了心口。价差越大，结果越大。最后什么都没有了，我也不会觉得难受和心痛。第二，那些我们曾经以为永远不会忘记的事情，在我们执念的过程中被遗忘了。

29. First, the first feeling of disappointment is like being stabbed in the heart. The greater the price difference, the greater the result. In the end, I won't feel any discomfort or heartache. Second, those things that we once thought we would never forget are forgotten in the process of our obsession.

30. 二十三、有些烦恼，失去了，才有机会平复。

30. Twenty-third, some troubles, only after losing them, do we have the opportunity to calm down.

31. 八、我死心塌地的爱你，你却把我伤的这么彻底。

31. Eight, I am deeply and sincerely in love with you, yet you have wounded me so deeply and thoroughly.

32. 有时候心寒是我知道你在背后讽刺我，但我还是想让你喜欢对你笑。

32. Sometimes I feel chilled to the bone because I know you're mocking me behind my back, but I still want you to like me and smile at you.

33. 不管你觉得自己多么的了不起，也始终有人比你更强;不管你觉得自己多么的不幸，始终有人比你更加不幸。

33. No matter how great you may feel about yourself, there will always be someone who is greater than you; no matter how unfortunate you may feel, there will always be someone who is more unfortunate than you.

34. 第三，我一直太懂事，不能让你自由犯错，错到不能再让你留在我的世界。

34. Thirdly, I have always been too responsible, unable to let you make mistakes freely, mistakes so grave that they no longer allow you to stay in my world.

35. 其实人生是公平的，每个人都有自己的擅长，那就是最大的福气，我们只要做出自己力所能及的事情，让自己感到开心就已足够。让自己清醒醒悟只是一瞬间的事情，只是时间的早晚。有趣的灵魂终会相遇，在此之前请先努力成为更好的自己。

35. In fact, life is fair. Each person has their own strengths, which is the greatest blessing. As long as we do what we can, and let ourselves be happy, that is enough. Realizing and waking up is just a moment, it's just a matter of time. Interesting souls will eventually meet, and before that, please strive to become a better version of yourself.

36. 二十二、一次见面，总比不见面好。

36. Twenty-two, one meeting is always better than no meeting.

37. 小小年纪就选择安逸，是对自己最大的残忍。你在生命的早期越懒惰，就越有可能错过后来让你兴奋的人和事。请记住，在你的能力和理想匹配之前，所有的安逸都是绊脚石。能用汗水解决的，就不要用眼泪。从今天开始，加倍努力！

37. Choosing comfort at a young age is the greatest cruelty to oneself. The lazier you are in the early stages of life, the more likely you are to miss the people and things that will excite you later on. Remember, all comfort is a stumbling block until your abilities match your ideals. Don't use tears when sweat can solve the problem. Starting today, double your efforts!

38. 接受孤独，接受失去，接受自己是不完整的，偶尔还会被变故打败。也许接受是难以下咽的，但在无法承受的时候，要学会放过自己。

38. Accept loneliness, accept loss, accept that you are incomplete, and sometimes even be defeated by circumstances. Perhaps acceptance is hard to swallow, but when it is unbearable, learn to forgive yourself.

39. 二十四、对不起是一种真诚，无所谓是一种风度。如果付出了真心，却得不到风度，那只能说明对方的无知和庸俗。

39. Twenty-fourth, an apology is a sincerity, and being indifferent is a demeanor. If you have given your whole heart but fail to receive the demeanor, it can only indicate the ignorance and vulgarity of the other party.

40. 三十三、和你没机会的人，不管你跟他说多少，都是废话。命中注定的那个人，你的存在可以唤醒他所有的感情。

40. Thirty-three, with those who have no chance with you, no matter how much you say to them, it's all talk. The person destined to be with you, your presence can awaken all of his feelings.

41. 第一次感觉失望，就像被人戳了心。价差越大，结果越大。最后什么都没有了，我也不会觉得难受和心痛。

41. The first time I felt disappointed, it was like being pierced in the heart. The greater the price difference, the greater the result. In the end, I wouldn't feel any discomfort or pain.

42. 曾经天真的以为，用真心对任何人，就可以得到真正的友情，真正的爱情。后来，认识了一些人，经历了一些事，才知道一切都只是我以为。

42. Once naively believed that with sincerity towards anyone, one could gain true friendship and true love. Later, after getting to know some people and experiencing some things, I realized that everything was just what I thought.